Eli Alvarez

Baby boy,

 

Today is the day that you were supposed to be born and be loved by everyone in your life. Instead you got your wings almost four months ago. It breaks my heart every time that I think of that day. I wish things would have turned out different for the both of us. I wish I would have been gone with you baby.

 

I want you to know that your tias, tios, cousins and your two grandmothers love you so much baby boy. You will always have a special place in everyone’s heart.

 

I know they say that time heals everything. But I never want this pain to ever go away. You are my baby and you will always be my special angel sent from heaven. One day we will reunite baby.

 

I know you were there with us when we send you all of those nice balloons. I hope Papi Ricardo read to you all the messages we wrote on the balloons. Even your little cousins were sending you messages baby. Telling you just how much they love you and miss you. Always smile on us babyboy and never stop sending me your love because I need it every day of my life.

 

Daddy loves you so much baby! He tells me everyday just how special you are. Thank you for the bracelet. I love it. Specially because it has your name on it and Grandma Irma and Mami Consuelo love the bracelets we got for them with your name on it also. They said that it was the best present ever baby.

 

I love you Eli. I always will. I love you yesterday, today tomorrow and I always will babyboy

 

Does Anyone Know?

Does anyone know what today should be?
Anyone else or is it only me?

Does anyone know how great today would have been,
If you would have come now, instead of then.

It seems people forget; to them it is just another day.
But for me, I just can't think of it that way.

My heart aches and I can't stop the tears.
I keep on wishing that you were still here.

Others just don't understand why, today, I mourn.
Today is a special day; the day you should have been born

Hi Baby boy! I cannot stop thinking about you sweetie. You are my most precious jewel. I love you so much Eli that I hope you could feel all the love I have for you all the way from heaven baby. I found this really nice poem. I hope you like it. Every time I find nice things I only think of you. I miss you so much. Next week would have been my due date baby and its starting to get to me. I thought that by now I would be able to handle it. But I guess I’m not that strong yet baby. I love to talk about you, especially with your daddy. We both enjoy every moment when it comes to you. We imagine those things that you would have said or the things that you would have done with us. We imagine you eating something and then Oreo and Lola licking your face or both of them playing with your toys and you getting upset. How I wish I had those moments with you baby. I hope you like what I’m buying for your garden. I am taking my time picking just the right stuff for it because I want to make it as special as it can be. I love you Eli and I always will. You are my star always.

 

 

If snowdrops grow in Heaven,
Please pick a bunch for me,
Place them in my Baby's arms,
And tell him, they're from me,
Tell him I love and miss him,
And when he turns to smile,
Place a kiss upon his cheek,
And hold him for a while,
Because remembering him is easy,
I do it every day,
But there's an ache within my Heart,
That will never go away.

 

To My Mommy & Daddy

 

 

“My Mummy is a Survivor “


My Mummy is a survivor,
Or so I've heard it said.

She wears a smile for others...
A smile of disguise!
But through Heaven's door I see,
Tears flowing from her eyes. 

My mummy tries to cope with death,
To keep my memory alive.
But anyone who knows her knows,
It is her way to survive. 

As I watch over my surviving mummy,
Through Heaven's open door...
I try to tell her that angels,
Protect me forevermore. 

I know that doesn't help her...
Or ease the burden she bears.
So if you get a chance, go visit her...
And show her that you care. 

For no matter what she says...
No matter what she feels,
My surviving mummy has a broken heart,
That time won't ever heal.But I can hear her crying at night,
When all others are in bed. 

I watch her lay awake at night,
and go to hold her hand.
She doesn't know I'm with her,
To help her understand. 

But like the sands on the beach,
That never wash away...
I watch over my surviving mummy,
Who thinks of me each day. 

 

“My Daddy is a Survivor”

My daddy is a survivor too
which is no surprise to me.
He's always been like a lighthouse
that helps you cross a stormy sea.

But, I walk with my daddy each day
to lift him when he's down.
I wipe the tears he hides from others;
He cries when no one's around.

I watch him sit up late at night
with my picture in his hand.
He cries as he tries to grieve alone,
and wishes he could understand.

My daddy is like a tower of strength.
He's the greatest of them all!
But, there are times when he needs to cry...
Please be there when he falls. 

Hold his hand or pat his shoulder...
And tell him it's okay.
Be his strength when he's sad,
Help him mourn in his own way.

Now, as I watch over my precious daddy
from the Heavens up above...
I'm so proud that he's a survivor...
And, I can still feel his love.

Hello My Sweet Angel,

 

I miss you so much baby. It has been more than three months and I am missing you more than ever. I wish things would be so different for us baby. Your nursery did not get finish. I still have your clothes in my room. I am not ready to put it away yet. I guess somehow it keeps me connected with you. Every breath I take is for you Eli. Everything at home reminds me of you baby. I still need your daddy to keep me company when I go out. But now when I talk about you I am able to smile and I am always wondering if you have curly hair like me, if you have my curly eyelashes or your daddy’s, if you have your daddy’s moody attitude or mine, if you love candy like he does or you are picky like I am, I wonder if you have that innocent smile that your daddy has or if you laugh loud like I do.  I wonder so many things baby

 

I also wonder what it would be like to be an angel in heaven. I wonder if you could feel all the love that I have for you. I wonder if you visit us often, I wonder if you keep me company when I drive to work, I wonder if you hear me telling you how much I love you and how much I miss you. I wonder if you can’t wait to be reunited with me the way I am.

 

I love you baby. You are the light that shines on me on a cloudy day.

hi eli I wish you were with us and we love you so much and you are the best little cousin I had and Im sad because you are not here

Babyboy, Our good friend Annie send some nice poems for you & me. I hope you like them.  I love you my little chiquilin. You are my light baby.

 

 

 

 

Angel Of Mine!

 

Losing you has been so very hard to accept,
Although I knew you couldn't be here forever.
My heart was just not prepared in any way,
For the time we would no longer be together.

Months have passed since the Angels came,
But to my heart it still feels like only yesterday.
I miss the things we would say to each other,
And all of the words that we did not get to say.

My heart still cries for you, and the tears fall,
But I know it will become less painful in time.
I long to have you back for just one more day,
To tell you how much I love, this Angel of mine.

 

 

Hello there my little angel...  I thought I share with you the moment I found out I was expecting my little godson... It was a sunny day I was on my way to LA.. I was in a hurry cause I found out your mommy was getting opperated from her appendix.. Its funny cause I was so mad cause I was stuck in traffic.. All I could think of was that your mommy needed me by her side... But then I recieve a call from mommy she sounded in pain and she was crying... I felt so bad that I couldnt do anything to make her feel better but when she told me that what me and her had already had doubt's about was true!!!!  I started crying with mommy I thought that was one of the greatest momments Ive ever had!!   I can honestly say that I felt all the excitement and happiness your mom and dad felt that day...  For a momment I had forgot that your mommy was sick... and just thought of you!!  I really wanted you to be a little girl... But when I saw you for the first time I said what a beautiful little boy and wouldnt ask for nothing more then just you!!!  Im am your godmother Eli.. and I wanted to share a memory that I have in my heart of you.. I thought I tell you how much love I felt for you just that day I  found out my little godson was on his way... Now imagine what I feel for you now.... I really do miss you Eli...   Cause a feeling like that Ive never had and its a great feeling....   I love you always and your always in my thoughts....

                                                                 Your Nina

                                                               that treasures your memories...

"Special Angel in Heaven"

There's a special Angel in Heaven
that is a part of me.
It is not where I wanted him
but where God wanted him to be.

He was here but just a moment
like a night time shooting star.
And though he is in Heaven
he isn't very far.

He touched the heart of many
like only an Angel can do.
I would've held him every minute
if the end I only knew.

So I send this special message
to the Heaven up above.
Please take care of my Angel
and send him all my love.

 

 

Baby, I hope you like this poem. I love you my little chiquilin.

Baby I found this picture, I hope you like it. I always think of you my love. You are my special little boy. At first I did not understand how could you love someone so much that you have never met. But, the day that I found out that you were going to be part of my life. My love for you grew so much baby. That It change the person that I was then and it has definitely change the person that I am today. I love you baby, even thought I never got to watch you grow. You will always be my little boy. I will never forget the first time I felt you move baby. I was driving in the freeway and I just wanted to stop in the middle of the freeway and touch my belly just for you and I could not stop touching my stomach ever since. I love you Eli and I pray to god every day that He keeps you safe. Baby I found this poem. I hope you like it baby boy. I love you.

I looked toward the clouds today
and for a moment saw your face
and wondered just where you have gone
with the hope it's a peaceful place

Did you show yourself to me today
to tell me you're all right?
Or was it just a daydream
playing tricks upon my sight

Then I thought of when you left
still too young to say a word
Yet the look you gave us said it all
in our hearts, your good-bye was heard

You have changed our lives forever
your short time here not in vain
and hope you know we tried it all
to keep you safe from pain

We will always feel the void inside
because you are not here
But each new thought you send our way
let's us know you're always near

So until our journey nears it's end
and we hear the Angels sing
We'll face each new day as it comes
and live off the Love you bring.

 

 

Hey little bunddle of joy well just to let you know you are always loved and missed by the whole family, and our family is quite big so thats alot of loving.  When i seen you for the very first time you were the most beautiful baby i have ever seen and for the time being you were the strongest baby aswell! I don't know why God decided to take you away from us but everythng happens for a reason i guess, but we all know that you are up there smiling down at us and keeping our Papi Ricardo company. You are in our hearts, thoughts, and in our dreams; you might be gone but never forgotten!!!!

                                                       Love, Your Cousin Lizzie

Baby Eli I will never forget your cute lil face with your big strong hands just like your daddy and those lil feet of yours just like my tio vic even the big middle toe  and your beautiful eyebrows like my tia monica and your fat lil but and thighs i love u so much baby eli  i remember when i was kissing u ,u were so soft i send u lot's of kisses and hug's