Eli Alvarez

Monica,

You are such a wonderful person and Eli's page is more beautiful each time I visit.  I wish that we were not forever bonded by this pain that few know.  I hope that in time, we will be able to move past this horrible pain we deal with each day.  I know that Ava and Eli want us to be happy, but how can we you know?  I just want you to know that I am here for you always.  Eli is lucky to have a Mommy like you and I am sure he is smiling in heaven knowing how special his parents are! Happy Father's Day to Eli's Daddy as well!!

Thank you so very much for your sweet and loving condolence you sent to me.  I am Lexi's Grandma.  She was my only little granddaughter.  We wanted her so much and she was and is still very loved.  She was her father's only child and her mother's 3rd.  Since, they are now living apart as he could not seem to function anymore.  He lives with myself and my mother.  He is struggling to get thru everyday without his precious Lexi.  It has been a year and 2 months since she became and Angel.  I am very depressed and wonder 'why' as I know you do also.  I see so many others who seem to be caught up in their lives and they have their children and sometimes it seems as tho they aren't thankful that they still have their babies.  I quess they can't understand our losses, but I will never ever take anyone for granted ever again.  Everyday is a trial and I know I am not alone.  Thank you again for remembering our little girl.  One day we will all be together in Heaven.  God Bless You and your family.

Monica and Victor,

I am sorry about the loss of your baby. Just reading your comments and all those beautiful things you say to your baby it shows how much pain you are in.

Eli is such a beautiful angel and he knows just how much you love him and how much you miss him. I also lost my baby a few months ago and no parent should ever have to bury their child. That is not way it is. But we sometimes be put in a situation that makes us stronger. I believe that now even if it hurts every day when I wake up and dont see my baby with me.

I love what you have done to your baby's page. It is beautiful and it shows all the love you have for him. I admired your strentgh and I hope god will bless you with something special soon.

Hello Again Monica!

                              I sincerly hope and pray that you both are finding  comfort in the LORD asyou take it one step one day at a time. When I think about my sweet baby Isaiah, I think.."what I would give if only I could hold him, see his beautiful smiling face or just to watch in aweas he plated with hsi favorite toy..his woozit. So many plans , so many hopes and wishes and dreams we all have for our children, but  remember, our lives were blessed and forever changed because of them and that  is something  to cherish and be graciously thankful for.

I am completely new  to this site, and I've viewed several of them  and  would like to know how do I add graphics and poetry, thigns like that, I tried with one from jellymuffin.com and all I got was just a code..any suggestions or help will be encouraged!! Thanks so much!  the poem with the beautiful baby ABOVE is soo precious, could you maybe tell where I can find that?

P.S..how do I reply or contact others who have left me condolences or lit my child's candle? How do I contact them privately or directly? Sorry,for the questions on this page but I didn't know how to ask in  a different way. Thanks again.

Hi Monica!

                           I'm finally glad to have the opportunity to share some kind and thoughtful words in hopes that it may help ease the hurt and the pain of losing a child.  No doubt, I've cried and shed all the tears I could cry, and when they all dry up ,it just starts all over again. Our Little Isaiah  passed in the wee hours of the morning on April 22, 2008, exactly one month from tomorrow. We were traveling back from a vacation in Texas..( where my fiancee is stationed U.S Army) and halfway   home in Michigan.. I wake up to find him unresponsive in my arms. I couldn't possibly tell you how horrified i was at the moment, except I went completly numb and mind blank, its like a piece of you dies along with them. The cause of his death still remains unknown  but no matter what, he will be forever in our hearts  the same as your sweet baby Eli. I believe God has a purpose and  a reason for why he chooses the very best and while we  may not understand, he does!  We will always be fortunate for the beautiful time spent with Isaiah even if only for a short while.

I've had so many people confront me and tell me thinngs like.." his death could have been prevented" or "it's your fault you fell asleep".. and I could only just shake my head  in shock and disbelief simply because they don't know or understand the pain and  the love in which bonds a mother to her child. Too many assumptions and not enough of the facts is what I call it. This site allows me to find  the encouragement and support I so desperately need and seek. I can share my story, my pain, my anger and so much more without being misunderstood or judged, because like many many others,  I'm not alone.

I hope you continue to find GOD'S peace, love and comfort in your hearts and remember , our little angels are smiling down on us, watching and protecting our families untilwe reunite with them again!!

                                                                                  Love & Prayers,

                                                                     ( The Campbell/Duncan Family)

Monica,

Just wanted to let you know that I'm thinking of you.  I read your latest poem to Eli on the home page and I thinks it's just beautiful.

Remeber I said before, "Maybe it's a blessing in disguise?"  I believe it was.  Just to see how your life has changed and how you've learned not to take things for granted.

Just thought I'd let you know that I'm proud of you.

Keep hanging in there.  I know the pain will never go away, but it will subside.

 HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY

Monica,

Just wanted you to know, I'm thinking of you.  I'm glad to see how much support you have and how many people care for you.  Keep your head up.  I'm proud of you

I dont know you but I thought it was a sign that I saw this and thought of your baby... I lost my brother on Nov 12 2007 he was 17 years old  and I always look at the new faces that are added on to this site. Your baby stayed on my mind and I wanted to let you know if you need to talk feel free to go to my brother site his name is Jonathan Alvarez - he is under all the alvarez.

Take Care,

JANELLY

Monica, sometimes when such traumatic things happen to us, we tend to feel anger towards God and wonder why he let this happen to us ( I know I did). 

My Mom always says "No hay mal que por bien ni venga"  God knows what he's doing and why he's doing it. 

I can't begin to compare my experience to yours but I can tell you that if God didn't think you could handle it, he wouldn't have put you through it. 

Be strong.  Continue living for yourself and your husband.  Be thankful that you got the opportunity to feel what it's like to be a Mommy, to hold your baby in your arms, kiss his lips and smell his scent.  Nobody can take that from you. 

This may bring you and your husband closer together, make you a stronger team, and then you'll realize.....maybe it's a blessing in disguise.

Monica and Victor, we know that words cannot heal the pain of losing someone so dear.  But may God give you the strength to overcome the pain and may he soon grant you comfort and serenity in your lives.

Please know our deepest prayers and wishes are we you both. 

Love,

Erika & Family